Changes on the Horizon

Hello Friends!

I have some really great news that I wanted to share with all of you. Since Amelia has been born, it’s become very clear to me that I need to reinvest in my businesses so I can leave my day job. I’ve started working from home full-time so I can see her more often but it’s still not enough. I miss that little girl between every break. I need to be able to spend more time with her.

I’ve decided to change organizations and am currently getting certified with ProDoula for both labor and postpartum support. In the process of doing that, Baby G’s mom (K) said she’d love to become a doula as well. We discussed it and she’s become an independent contractor for me. We talked and one thing led to another, and before I knew it, I’m owning a doula agency. Today I took on another doula. My little agency is growing. I’m so proud. I’m getting a logo created and my website should be live by the end of the month. I’m so happy.

In other news, we’ll be trying for baby #2 by the end of summer. I’m really ready to be pregnant again and to have another blessing join our family. Full disclosure? I’m also petrified! I’m so scared that it won’t happen again. I don’t know that I can go another 8 years TTC.

Obviously this time around will be a little less desperate as we’ve already been given a gorgeous little girl (who is currently laying on daddy’s chest giving him kisses). Hubby is so excited for us to get pregnant again. I don’t want to let him down. I have a pack and a half of birth control left. Then it’s TTC again.

I’m trying not to pysch myself out before we even start trying but I’m failing. It’s getting better. I started arguments with Hubby a few times to avoid baby dancing. He caught on and asked me what was wrong. I made up some stupid lie. He asked if we were going to start TTC on Amy’s birthday like was always the plan. I fibbed and said I wanted to finish the last few packs because I think it’ll help to keep my hormones balanced. I wanted to buy more time before the crushing defeat of my first BFN.

I talked to K about how I was feeling. She helped me to find the words so I could have a heart to heart with Hubby. He helped me to feel better. It feels great to know that he’s as invested in this as I am. He’s scared too but wants to help me with whatever I need. I love this man!

We’ll get through this together. We’ve started to do yoga at night again. Amy tries to crawl up our legs in downward dog. Then she’s tries to emulate us in corpse pose and happy baby. Regardless of how this pans out, we are fully aware of how lucky we are to have this beautiful, smart, incredibly strong baby girl who loves to laugh and cuddle.

amy swing

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I’m a Terrible Blogger!

I didn’t realize how far behind I’d fallen on blogging until I posted a photo of Amelia on my Instagram. One of my favorite blogging Cysters commented on it. (Thanks Satoya!)

Guys, seriously! Amy is walking. She has 7 teeth. And I’m planning her 1st birthday party. Where did this year go?

I miss you all. I’m coming back I promise. Here’s my baby girl to tide you over.




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I suck!

I can’t believe it’s been so long since I posted. I’m working on a post about traditions. Here’s some new Amelia photos to tide you over!




She’s such a ham!

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Thankful Beyond Words

Last year at Thanksgiving I started spotting. I was an emotional wreck all day. Hubby and I actually snuck out to the garage for a moment to ourselves. I cried into his chest, lamenting another failed cycle. Little did I know it was implantation bleeding.

Today as we discussed what we were thankful for it was all I could do to maintain my composure. I am so blessed. Amelia was so happy today, even though there was a big crowd fawning over her.

I hope you all had a great day. Amy says Happy Thanksgiving!



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Banana Bread Breakfast cookies

Hubby’s grandmother recently had a stroke.  While she was bedridden, she didn’t want to eat much.  I was determined to find something that she’d eat that would give her some strength.  I had a recipe for “healthy banana cookies” from Pinterest.  Basically it was 2 ripe bananas mashed and 1 cup oatmeal.  Bake at 350 for 15 minutes.  It suggested adding additional ingredients such as chocolate chips or peanuts. 

I played with it and made some pretty awesome, healthy cookies.  No added sweeteners and full of antioxidants and protein.  I will probably try to add different things like raisins or walnuts…maybe even some ginger the next time I make them.  Forewarning, they end up with a consistency of banana bread more than a cookie.  It’s weird if you’re not expecting that.  It actually makes me want to try to make them as bars instead of drop cookies.

4 ripe bananas
1/2 cup peanut butter
2 cups quick oats
2 tsp cinnamon
1/4 cup dark chocolate chopped
1/2 tsp vanilla

Mash the bananas into the peanut butter.  Add the rest of the ingredients and stir until everything is evenly distributed.  Drop them on to an ungreased baking sheet.  They don’t really spread much so you can crowd them a bit.  Bake at 350 for 15 minutes.  Cookies should be firm enough to hold their shape.

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Getting You Up to Speed

Hello Friends!

So if you haven’t guessed, I’m back to work.  Friday was my first day back.  It was such a long day!  Amy woke up around 4am wanting to be fed.  I couldn’t fall back to sleep afterwards so even though I didn’t need to be in the office until 8am I made it here by 6.  Then I stayed until 330.  I didn’t get to go home right away because I had a meeting after work.  I’m volunteering at a milk bank that is trying to get up and running so I needed to work with the director there.  The committee nominated me as Director of Mother Services.  I’m pretty excited about that.

I got home around 7pm and my husband was completely frazzled.  His grandmother had fallen during the day and was getting worse.  His mom and aunt ended up taking Grandma to the ER around 8pm and they only found high blood pressure and water retention.  She now cannot use her right side.  The doctors now believe that they missed evidence of a stroke.  This weekend was stressful to say the least.

On a happier note, our breastfeeding woes are gone.  The day Amy turned 6 weeks old, we were in the Wal-mart parking lot and my daughter decided she wanted a boob.  I couldn’t believe it.  Ever since then we’ve had no struggles.  It was as if someone flipped a light switch. 

A few weeks after we figured that out, she stopped having regular bowel movements.  The pediatrician said that my milk was transitioning so Amy would probably start to have fewer bowel movements..  Well it went downhill fast.  We’ve even had a trip to Urgent Care and an X-ray.  She now has to have watered down apple juice twice a day and if she goes more than a few days with no poops, we have to give her a glycerin suppository. 

We’re finally getting the hang of our new normal in that regard…so of course something needed to change:  we’re teething already!  I ordered some amber when I was pregnant so I made her an amber teething necklace.  Then while my supplies were out, I made one for my niece and one for Hubby’s cousin’s little girl.  After posting a photo on my jewelry FB page, I received orders for 2 more.  Woohoo!  I plan to do an entry about these necklaces.

Another thing that has changed is our cloth diapering preferences.  We still love the gDiapers for while we’re out and about and Thirsties for overnight.  However, I’ve really grown to love the prefolds and cute covers for during the day.  I actually just loaded my cart with new cute covers and the cloth inserts for the gDiapers.

Tonight after work we are having our first official family photos taken.  I’m ecstatic.  I’ll share some as soon as I have them.  To tide you over, here’s a photo of Amy wearing her new amber teething necklace.

Amelia wearing her new amber teething necklace.

Amelia wearing her new amber teething necklace.

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My Experience with Cloth Diapering

As most of my readers know, it took my husband and me 8 years to conceive. That gave me a lot of time to do research on a lot of parenting options. One of the choices I made for my family was to cloth diaper. I made that choice because it is better for the environment, less expensive, and lowered the risks of diaper rash. I’d like to say that my baby’s bottom or the wastefulness of disposables were my main concerns but honestly the financial impact of disposables was the main deciding factor for me. My husband has been unemployed since November 2011. (He was laid off and then went back to school.) I needed to know I’d never have to worry about running out of diapers and money at the same time. 

If we assume a child is potty trained around 2 years old, that is 104 weeks of diapers. If said child goes through a package of diapers every week, and those cost around $10, which is over a thousand dollars going into the trash. If your child is potty trained later, it’s even more expensive. I made an initial investment of $90 and since spent about $30 more for diapers. I bought a variety from a friend who cloth diapered and whose children are no longer in diapers. These were well taken care of diapers so they looked like new. Buying them new would have been about double what I spent. If I assume $250, that is still less than a quarter of the cost of disposables. 

I just want to state that this was a choice my husband and I made for our family. It is not right for every family. The initial investment is more than with disposables. Also, if you don’t have access to non-coin laundry on a daily basis, cloth diapering is probably not for you. The cost can go up greatly if you’re making constant runs to the laundromat. The time investment is also greater if you have to go somewhere other than your home to do the laundry. We are currently doing baby laundry every day (diapers every other day and clothing, burp cloths, etc. on non-diaper days). The other downside is that they are bulkier than disposables. We’ve made onesie extenders to account for this. We found a pattern on Pinterest.

 Now on to the types of diapers we’ve tried and what we think of them. We have used gDiapers, BumGenius, Real Nappies, and Thirsties.

 Our favorites are the gDiapers. They have an outer made of fabric that feels like a comfy t-shirt. There is then a plasticky nylon gusset that snaps in. You fill this gusset with either a cloth or disposable insert. The cloth inserts cost come in a pack of 6. The disposable inserts come in packs of 40. You can order the disposable inserts in a case of 4 (so 160 inserts) for $48-$52. If you use the disposable inserts, you aren’t saving much, if anything from just using disposable diapers. We do have the cloth inserts but have bought the disposable inserts for when we’re out and about. It’s way easier than trying to spray out a cloth diaper in a public restroom. We will also be sending these with for daycare.

 The BumGenius diapers are great. They have the most fun prints. My current favorite is called Edison. It’s black with white writing with mathematical and scientific formulas. These fit Amelia really well. She seems comfortable in them. We use the all-in-ones but they have versions with more layers. My husband loves these because they’re super easy to wash.

 Until recently Amy was in the BumGenius all-in-ones constantly at home. About 2 weeks ago, she started filling her diapers between feeds overnight. I noticed that when she woke up for her 2am feeding she was drenched in urine. The all-in-ones just can’t hold the amount of urine she releases overnight. We started using the Thirsties. They have an outer that feels kind of like a fall jacket and then there is a cotton inner attached only on the sides. This creates kind of like a pocket. For during the day you can put in an additional insert or for overnight, there are inserts that snap together and sandwich around the inner part that is sewn in. No more urine soaked sleep sacks. Our only issue with these so far is that Amy is a tad too small for the size we have. We have 2 that have Velcro closures and 2 that snap close. My daughter loves to kick her feet and has gotten the Velcro ones to come open a few times. The snap closed ones stay on pretty well.

 The Real Nappies are waterproof covers with little pockets in the front and back to tuck in those big white rectangular cloths. We have not used these much but seem to work well. The downside with these is that they need to be ordered. I believe the company is based in New Zealand.

 We also have some prefolds. These are what most people think of for cloth diapers. It’s what your great grandmother diapered her kids in…the big white rectangular cloths that you use pins to close. We then have some waterproof covers to pull over.   We also haven’t used these much but haven’t had any issues. They aren’t as easy but certainly aren’t difficult to use. We have the diaper pins and have ordered Snappies (an alternative to diaper pins). I have fallen in love with some homemade covers.

 If you have any additional questions about cloth diapers I’d love to try to answer them for you. I’d also love to hear if you have other topics you’d like to read about. As always, thank you for your support and for sticking with me as my blog transitions. Be well friends!




Edison by BumGenius

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