Yesterday I had my first official prenatal appointment. It was phenomenal. I was unable to eat prior to my appointment because of the nausea. I was also pretty nervous.
When we got there I felt fine. It was nice to sit in the waiting room with my husband. He was calm and supportive. He helped to mellow me out. We went back and they got my weight and all that fun stuff. Then it was a ton of questions. Finally at the very end, I got to hear my baby’s heart beat! In the 2 seconds before she found it, I was dying on the table. Then she found it and I started crying. Hubby took out his phone and recorded the sound. I have a 20 second clip of my baby’s heart beat! It was super fast, faster than normal; around 190.
After that appointment I booked my first appointment with the midwives. I’m excited for it. My first appointment is with the midwife who delivered Baby G…so I already know her and have worked with her. I’m so glad to start with her. Then I went over to the lab and had my blood and urine tests done. The phlebotomists at my clinic are all super nice. I had a new one who recognized the panel as a pregnancy and made polite conversation about my pregnancy. She asked if we got to hear the heart beat and I started crying again. I said yes and that it was beautiful. I apologized for crying and explained that we’d tried for 8 years so that hearing the heart beat was amazing for us. She hugged me and congratulated me. It was so nice.
Then after all of that Hubby and I headed out to get food. Once we got to the car he played the recording that he’d gotten for me. I started to sob and that turned into the super ugly crying. It hit me that I really am pregnant. I really am going to have a baby. This is something we worked for for so long and it’s finally a reality. I am so in shock! Yesterday just made me feel so much more confident. I couldn’t stop crying. It was like the stress of the last year came crashing down on me. I just cried and cried. It felt so good. I thanked GOD for this gift and felt truly blessed.
After lunch I dropped Hubby off at school and headed to my mom’s to visit. I played the sound clip for her. She cried too. We talked a lot. Then my phone rang. It was my friend in Germany. Her husband’s contract is up with the air force in September. They had applied for early separation so he could be home for the summer as it’s easier to find jobs then. They were approved. They will be home in early June. She is so excited that she’ll get to be here for my shower and for when Stewie is born. I’m so glad to have them both coming home! They’ve lived there for 3 years.
There is nothing that can touch how happy I am at this moment. I scheduled my NTT scan for February 3rd so I’ll actually get to SEE my baby. This is just amazing. Everything feels so real. The NP also told us that now that we’ve made it so far, with the progesterone suppositories, and the strong heart beat, we now have less than 1% chance of losing Stewie. LESS THAN 1%!!!! My eyes are welling up with tears again as I write that. I think I’m finally going to be a mommy! I’m on top of the world right now!